I'm a troubled soul.

I'm failure. There's nothing I can do in life that's right. What is wrong with me? Is God hurting me because I question his being? Is it me? I found out my grades today. Well, I passed Spanish and Physics; however I failed the Spanish final and I feel like I'm failure, a loser. I just wish that when I was in middle school - the IB juniors who told me about this program would tell me how much suffering this would be. I only joined in thinking that I'll be able to get a lot of scholarships to help out my family. It's not Spanish that's putting me down. It's math. I failed my math class. That will go into my transcript. I don't know if I have to take another math class or what? I'm so stupid. This is how I feel. Maybe it's because of my counselor and the IB coordinator. I don't know. When I told my counselor about me failing math in the graduation test...I can see in his eyes that he was deeming me as a failure. I'm in IB - you have to be smart and pass everything. I mean come on what is up with that! Then there is the counselor. He basically straight out tells you if you're not smart then get out. What kind of persons are they. But the point is I failed a class for the first time in my entire life! What am I to do! I don't know anymore. I just don't.

Prom1.2

Ahh, prom. It comes again. Amidst the studying of finals and exams I went to prom with my greatest guy friend (: It was so fun. I didn't have to drive, rush, or worry about anything. We took pictures with beautiful scenery. I was able to see old friends - now acquaintances. It was a good day! It felt more natural with Krishna. Me and him had a thing going on, but I stopped it before anything happened. I just don't want to ruin a great friendship. This boy cannot dance worth shiz. haha. Pictures have yet to be uploaded so, my next post will be pictures to update you! But I really like my hair and me-up so much this time around. It was more natural and less caked with hairspray. It was me. I was wearing it not my hair or my make-up. My feet hurt. I'm not going to go into much detail because it's late and I'm tired and I want to just watch some TV and think of how to keep my hair the way to it is so, it can look good tomorrow. Because tomorrow is mother's day! What did you get for your mom? If I feel like it I'll probably write the full details when I post the pictures. Good-night/morning. However, you would like to call it.