You know whenever I go to work..at times I'm in a pretty good mood; however, Shaun or Jeanie just ruins it. Things they do never bothered me before when I was young. Maybe it's the stress or lack of sleep that makes me - it's a "i" word. I can't remember, but anyways once I start to get mad..I start to get emotional and very sad and depressed. All of these suppressed emotions just comes back like lava spewing out of a dormant volcano (if that makes any sense). I always seem to feel all alone in this world. I can't trust anyone anymore. I can't tell anyone anything. Ever since I broke up with Jonathan and he said those awful, terrible things to me. I've lost trust to all of my close guy friends. I don't want to hug or be close to anyone anymore. I feel like if I tell people my feelings, problems, thought they think I'm whining too much or I complain too much. Everyone's leaving me. I went to this one behavior center for the first time because I've come to terms that I might have depression and anxiety so, she set me up with a psychiatrist and I was not able to hear him say his extension number. Wouldn't you think that if an incoming patient doesn't call you back you should call her back again? My best friend since elementary school soon left me and became closer to another girl and now it feels as if we're like strangers. My now "best friend" never seems to be able to text back or answer her phone calls when I need her. I have nobody to talk to. I even feel stupid letting y'all readers read about this. I really want to talk to someone about stuff that's going on in my life. I want to tell this one guy, Tobi everything because he talks to me about his problems. However, when I try to tell him my problems I just feel so stupid.
I think this will fix the procrastination. I shall attempt to study, do homework, and other school assignments. Thanks for listening - well reading ^^
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