Motivated > Ashamed

Ahhhhhhhh, So, today we had a honest/love circle - whatever you like to call it. It's difficult for me to open up. Really. So, I think I tend to make things up in my mind, but they're partially true. I blurted out that I was a very mean person and that I didn't like something about everyone. Now I feel like I'm a total bitch, a fake person. Maybe I'm just overthinking I don't know. I mean we were being honest. And the whole class is already close. Ugh. I don't know. Whatever past is the past. I just need to move on and be who I am or at least try. On a better news, I'm finally going to see a psychiatrist/therapist! But I'm scared. What do I say. I mean I'm not depressed 24/7. It's more periodic - it randomly happens. Like I said before I can't spill out my feelings so easily. I need to be happier, no? I'm tired of writing about sad things!