Song of the Day: Love Again - S.M. The Ballad
Everyone at some point of their lives have dreams to do something. You can't just never have dreams. Being the major K-Pop fan that I am, I found out that
JYP is having auditions in America!! To all my K-Pop lovers, that's freaking exciting, no? Well, they're not having auditions in Atlanta or anywhere near me. Bummer. I messaged my K-Pop lover friend, Lisa. She's the beautiful mixed girl in my picture - the one in the blue dress. We planned to go and try out together - flying to New York. Which seems perfectly fine since she's of legal age to take care of anyone, however, there was an obstacle in our way. The parents. Not too long ago (not even an hour ago) I just asked my mom to go. She said no. Wait. Let me start from the beginning. I started with the conversation asking my mom if she's ever had a dream to do something. She started saying sarcastic and meaningless responses. My dad, well he kept interjecting useless words. Do they not believe in me? I told them that I would pay for everything and I have a relative that I can live with. So, why not. They never tell me why. I learned in psychology that parents who keep their children in tight grip that they (the children) will lose control of themselves at some point. I thought that this logic didn't apply to me, but now that I think abo
ut it. Does it now?
It's been a while since I fought with my dad. I think the last time I fought with him was my freshman year of high school - I'm a junior. That's not long now is it. But hey, that's a record! :p When I was little I couldn't stand up for myself against my dad. I was the little girl and my dad, well he was this tall guy with an authoritative voice - with a might wrist. I think I got spank and hit with a hanger and a duster (the one with the feathers and a stick-end) in the butt quite alot. Yes, I was a rebellion. I'm quite good at it now. I know
what his limits are and the spots that ruptures a volcano. Literally! I now find his threats hilarious and meaningless. Yes, guys. I poked the spot guys. And it was quite fun. It was such an adrenaline rush! I always cry when he yells at me and those tears were tears of hatred. This time, however were tears of sorrow. I cried for my dad. I felt sorry for him.
Now, I know you readers are thinking. THIS DOES NOT MAKE FREAKING SENSE! Well, It does. The talk about the audition led to the fight. W
hich led to me standing up for myself. And how? I didn't cry because I was scared - not now. Not anymore. While my dad ran towards me to yell at me. I just stood there. Back and shoulders straight. Now, this is not to make you guys call social services. This is not an everyday thing. Some people just have REALLY bad temper/anger
problems. Including me - hey that trait has gotta go somewhere, but I try to suppress it. Yeah, I'm not helping. I like to talking about random things, but hey they go hand-in-hand. It's like me trying to clean up my house. I can't just clean the shoe room and then fix the book shelf. I do a lil of the shoes and then the books. Finish the books and then finish the shoes. Makes sense? No? ahaha. Oh well.
This has been fun. I can't talk about this to my sister or friends. I'm afraid of them saying that I'm too whiney. Whereas here...we're all strangers here to comfort and listen to one another. So cheers to us!
Believe in yourself. Stand up for yourself. No matter what people say - you will achieve your goal. You just need to work hard because you can't achieve your dreams unless your work for it.
Oh, here the site to audition for JYP: http://audition.jype.com/2011usaaudition/index.asp
Good Luck if you do audition!
Good Luck if you do audition!
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