Wednesday, May 15, 2013
Fend for Yourself
It's summer break and I'm back home. This is the longest I've been back home since I've been away from school and it's an adjustment. Back in college, I'm used to taking care of myself and from time to time my roommate and some friends, but it's usually just me. I rely on myself and what not and it's different back at home. I'm no longer sharing a space with three people. Now, I'm sharing it with 5 people. The other day, my mom called me selfish because I didn't save any of my food so, they can try it. Kind of irritated me when she said that. I'm not used to being like, "Oh, wow this is good let me save some so, my roommate can try it." I've spend nearly a year living for myself. So, it'll be an adjustment. I'm sure once I get adjusted it'll be time to go back home.
Tuesday, April 23, 2013
Why do things end?
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Break-ups. They're not the greatest thing to deal with in life. Especially if you're with someone for a long time - lucky for me I've only been with my now ex boyfriend for 3 months. So, the period of time to get over him will be relatively fast. I just wish that the period is over and done with now. I'm tired of these flashbacks of our times together. I want to move on and find someone that can make me happier and that I can be comfortable with. I hate break-ups. My last relationship with Jonathan was easier. I never had these memory flashbacks. I never had this heartache. Was it because Brandon was my first? Emotions are a girl's worst enemy. I dislike it with a passion. I'm tired of thinking about him constantly every day. I want to be able to just focus on me again.
Wednesday, April 10, 2013
Oh,
Wow, I haven't written on this blog in a very long time. I've actually written or started writing some stuff, but I was too lazy to finish it and saved it in my drafts. So, these next few posts will be sort of old. I think writing on this will help me in becoming happier. I just need to write all my feelings out since I have trouble talking to people. Welp, here we go! It's going to take time since finals are coming up.
A Letter to Myself
Dear Me,
You are out of high school and your first year of college is almost coming to an end. You have changed in both good and bad ways. You've experienced many highs and lows this past year. You've grown stronger and have become a confident woman. I'm writing you this letter to remind you of your dreams. Who you want to become. What you want out of your life. This year you have been nonstop partying and drinking and not focusing on your school work. You need to change that when sophomore year comes around. Go out every 3 weeks or so and focus on school and your goal of going to med school and becoming a pediatrician. You need to either seek help for your depression or just don't get hung up about small things and with big things just talk to someone about it and STOP pushing people away. Stop thinking the wrong things about people like how you think they don't like you. If they don't like you then they will tell you. Be HAPPIER. Smile MORE. Be more CONFIDENT. You are no longer a child. You're becoming an adult. You have three (and less) years until the world welcomes you into their ugly arms. You need to learn now before it's too late. If there are people who get into your skin easily or just doesn't treat you right immediately kick them out of your life. You absolutely do not need negativity in your life! Your goal is to go to a prestigious medical school and become a pediatrician. Why do you want to become a pediatrician? Because you love little kids and you want to see them smile and not cry or have an ugly frown. Becoming a pediatrician will help you finally pay back mom and dad. Give them a good retirement and hopefully an early one so, they can travel and do whatever they want. Let them have the nice things while they're still around to show them you're love. You owe them this much after all their hard work. I know you push those things and ideas in the back of your mind in a closet because it's too depressing to think about. Mom and dad struggling working more than 18 hours a day just so you can get a better future. Remember that. When it comes to boys. Don't cry or get mad over them for more than a day or two. After that focus on yourself. Why y'all broke up. Then learn from the mistakes and put that into your next relationship so, you'll be one step closer to finding your one true love. There are seriously many people who care and love you. You just won't admit it. When they tell you, you rejoice. But later on you'll push them away. DON'T. You need them in your life to help you on your step to happiness. Just remember be happy. Don't let people get in your way. Watch your drinking and stop drunk calling people - seriously (or else Jonathan will be pissed and so will McCall :p). Study hard, think about your future. Party every so often not every week. Wait until after you get a job and life is starting. There are plenty of boys all you need to do is be confident and talk to them. You are quite attractive. If you have an problems and feel like crying or feel depressed please feel free to read me as many times as you want. You need this. You can do this! Be happier. Be stronger. You will overcome this turmoil and struggle in your life. And be nicer to your family.
I love you,
Me
You are out of high school and your first year of college is almost coming to an end. You have changed in both good and bad ways. You've experienced many highs and lows this past year. You've grown stronger and have become a confident woman. I'm writing you this letter to remind you of your dreams. Who you want to become. What you want out of your life. This year you have been nonstop partying and drinking and not focusing on your school work. You need to change that when sophomore year comes around. Go out every 3 weeks or so and focus on school and your goal of going to med school and becoming a pediatrician. You need to either seek help for your depression or just don't get hung up about small things and with big things just talk to someone about it and STOP pushing people away. Stop thinking the wrong things about people like how you think they don't like you. If they don't like you then they will tell you. Be HAPPIER. Smile MORE. Be more CONFIDENT. You are no longer a child. You're becoming an adult. You have three (and less) years until the world welcomes you into their ugly arms. You need to learn now before it's too late. If there are people who get into your skin easily or just doesn't treat you right immediately kick them out of your life. You absolutely do not need negativity in your life! Your goal is to go to a prestigious medical school and become a pediatrician. Why do you want to become a pediatrician? Because you love little kids and you want to see them smile and not cry or have an ugly frown. Becoming a pediatrician will help you finally pay back mom and dad. Give them a good retirement and hopefully an early one so, they can travel and do whatever they want. Let them have the nice things while they're still around to show them you're love. You owe them this much after all their hard work. I know you push those things and ideas in the back of your mind in a closet because it's too depressing to think about. Mom and dad struggling working more than 18 hours a day just so you can get a better future. Remember that. When it comes to boys. Don't cry or get mad over them for more than a day or two. After that focus on yourself. Why y'all broke up. Then learn from the mistakes and put that into your next relationship so, you'll be one step closer to finding your one true love. There are seriously many people who care and love you. You just won't admit it. When they tell you, you rejoice. But later on you'll push them away. DON'T. You need them in your life to help you on your step to happiness. Just remember be happy. Don't let people get in your way. Watch your drinking and stop drunk calling people - seriously (or else Jonathan will be pissed and so will McCall :p). Study hard, think about your future. Party every so often not every week. Wait until after you get a job and life is starting. There are plenty of boys all you need to do is be confident and talk to them. You are quite attractive. If you have an problems and feel like crying or feel depressed please feel free to read me as many times as you want. You need this. You can do this! Be happier. Be stronger. You will overcome this turmoil and struggle in your life. And be nicer to your family.
I love you,
Me
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